No Notes

Here I sit on this hot day 

…in the truck to waste away

…because there I bake

…with no notes to take. 

The poem must stop as I’ve lost the will to further rhyme. It sucks to get out to my relaxing spot and realize there is not a sketchpad and pen waiting for me. It’s lunch time — I’ve already changed to shorts only and I’m parked in my new chill spot. I have ideas to scribble. I need to get it down before it passes. 

It is tempting to skip the Thursday game night group. No one ever applies a yes/no to the meetup group, nor are they regular like me. But I realize, if nothing, the game store has nice tables setup in a fairly quiet room. Where I could dream over gaming design. 

I just hope that one kid does not show up. Grrrr, I can’t stand him. Nerdy, long-haired fellow with the problem of half-telling the rules to games. He watched me roll for the totally wrong thing the last time…I got what I wanted (you really don’t want to play dice against me) and finished rolling. I went to update my stats — he stopped me — “you can’t do that”. 

you just watched me roll for that (I aimed for 5 hearts). I got 3 hearts and 2 dmg (to him). And I was clear with my goal. Every roll saying I’m aiming for hearts!!

“I told you before starting”

oh, you mean the stuff I told you I’m not going to remember, because I don’t listen (can’t listen) to the instructions. Because that’s why I told you that. 

…and you watched/heard me say what I’m doing. And you just let me do it anyway. Okay, sure man, your game, whatever dude, hey your turn. 

“I didn’t know you didn’t know. ”

Your turn. 

(Not verbatim, but I did say all italics)

He also did some other sneaky stuff and refused to attack his girlfriend much. Yeah, SHE won. I really don’t like or respect guys that are “nice guys”. I have zero respect for you; I don’t care your motive, there is rarely a good reason to let a girl beat you because you’re afraid to beat her.

…lil bastard, I wanted to choke him for a moment. Not murder, just enough to show him the annoyance he is causing everyone else. 

…ahh the sweat is beginning to drip after forty five minutes of shade. That story must have fired me up!

7/20/2017 3:05pm

Carmax extended warranty is lame

Carmax screwed me with a warranty that has been worthless twice in 7 months. 
Now, rincon chevy says my clutch is out. Warranty won’t cover. Estimate of $1,400. 
So a non-car place should be cheaper. But how much? 
I wish I could afford to ditch these shit vehicles and buy a beater. But I’m way too deep in stupid underwater debt. And since I am a contractor, I can’t even get a crappy high interest loan, because loan offices don’t recognize temp positions. 

I need a job that can actually pay my bills. Tired of being on the verge of bankruptcy. It’s been three stupid years of this crap since that peckerhead at Gulfstream screwed me over by laying me off. 
…frustrated…7/12/2017

Prototype on the way

I traded mom groceries from the store for an amazon order of blank playing cards. She also ordered a folding game board that is also blank. 

SPR is very well on the way toward a complete game, but I still haven’t gotten to playtest the latest ideas. The plan is to do this today. Yet, this house has too much chaos to even sit and think. 

Here’s the pictures:




7/8/2017

Deep

I’m pretty much obsessed now. 

I’m in deep. I have four or five games in the works. SPR is the most basic and I’ve gotten a few iterations of design and play. Since it’s a quick 2 player game with minimal cards, the cycles have been quick. 
SoG is next up and modeled after Dream Quest (awesome game on app). This should help me determine values of cards and actions, enhance my critique of changes to the system, and who knows what else.
IoM(IoE?) is the most favorite of the ideas and should be built around much of the same mechanics as SoG, which is a deck-builder with character classes, multiple forms of attack, magic (or magic like), xp, and mostly: optional ways to customize your play style. 
Though, the project I initially wanted was to be nearly like axis & allies, but with the use of cards and deck building. That initial concept led me here and I’d like to get back to that, but I plan to develop gaming mechanics first. 

…enough for now. 

July 6, 2017